I feels like my mom is replacing me. It’s always a thought that I can’t get rid of. I just woke up from a dream crying, not even particularly bad but once again it had my mom. I hate this feeling because she’s putting a fear on me that I hate. Now it’s my job to try to get rid of this fear in the meantime until she does replace me and if she does. Then when it happens I don’t even know whats going to happen. I just need a best friend I can talk to. I mean a BEST friend, not just a friend or family member. I guess everyone wants that though. I don’t know when it’s going to be my time for that. There is nobody that I feel I can open up to, and theres a difference between there being people and not feeling like you can. That’s why I’m even on here in the first place.