I feel like an alien. Constantly waiting to get picked up or accidentally walk into a place with others like me. Somewhere were i can finally feel at peace with people who can understand me. But instead i have spent my entire life numbing myself from everything, I am so so scared. Every time I try to be a person like everyone else its like they can see it, the fact that i don't belong. Either I am not interesting enough to catch their attention or I just can’t get the words to come out of my mouth right. I am so tired of being alone and I am so tired of trying to connect with people and just feeling wrong. I am so tired of feeling like i am doing the wrong thing all the time, like i am just fundamentally wrong. Like I’m not supposed to be here.