i dont think anyones gonna truly get this, but why do i ffel like a larper in every human interaction. nothing feels chill and im not used to talking to ppl. i send my bf dirty insta reels as ajoke and he does too but im scared hell take it the wrong way,as an invitation bc bro i havent told this to aynone but im asexual.not aromantic i just dont want to let myself get into sexual relations. if i start abd habit its hard for me to get out of it. im no saint. i used to watch hentai and it grossed me out so much to the point i decided sex was gross all togther. i couldnt bear to even look at myslef in the mirrro whenevr i wacth that dirty ass conetct. i like to joke abt it but i do wish i have never done it as a child but yh now as teen it taught me that id rather avoid it