Sometimes I just feel like I'm not doing enough for my family. Like I'm just a disappointing mess of a daughter. I really do try my best, to be kind and helpful at home, do homework and be good. But sometimes they just say or do something that pisses me out and I just lash out at them Get mad. But then I cry, feeling guilty and thinking why did I do that. How better it would've been if I just listened and stayed silent. I can never stay silent. I'm just the loud, 'ungrateful', and 'rude' daughter. I always cry when they yell at me, even if it was just a small mistake. I've just been busy with school lately that I'm even forgetting how to take care of myself. I'm trying so hard not to do SH again. It just hurts on how much they barely care about my health, they barely notice I cry during dinner. But I don't let them see it. They'd just call me dramatic and actually give me a reason to cry about. My brother raped me when I was little, 7 YO. I couldn't tell my parents. I hate this life.