Well, it's usually my general friends, it kinda feels like when I do something that benefits my self mentally, usually my friends ((currently collage friends in my fine arts)) gives me a side eye or a "awh ok" type tone usually based in my success(writing), my ideas, my art, and how far I'm going through in life and how I usuals think from the bright side. They don't really sound supportive, my ideas when writing a book sometimes they sexualized them, I don't mind it but I kinda prefer to use my hobbies professionally. How I place 2 male characters together, they assume they are dating relationship when it's just 2 sentences of lore, everytime I invite them to hang out together after a long day of doing artworks they usually reject my ideas to at least treat ourselves but would go out with other friends. I know our differences but comparing them to other friend groups, they feel kinda nothing. I don't really know what is happening but I'm just being myself