dont reach if your sensitive or wtv i just hate everything and everyone makes me seem dumber than i thought i was. I missed half of grade 9 and grade 10 because of depression. my 5 attempts never worked, i just hold everything back and i cant hold it in anymore. i cry and suffer alone. alone with the thoughts that consume me with everything they have left to tear me down. the voice in my head isnt even my own half the time, people talk to me but i never understand what they are saying because theres to much going on inside my head that i cant hear what they are saying. i just want to leave i want the attempt to work i never want to be here again. i never prayed or looked into things about god but i pray every night for him to take away my pain and make it all end. to never feel this way again or for it to not get worst but its just getting worse and worse. pls help me, i need someone who actually cares enough to listen