Everyone is so insincere and fake. Nobody I meet is ever real, they all feel like they're hiding themself or masking, because of this all of my relationships feel superficial and one-sided and it's been driving me crazy. Mentally they don't feel like my friends at all, I don't feel the comfort or the safety of belonging, and I have a growing fear that I never will. As I get older, the people around me seem to develop even worse personalities, its gotten to the point where I'd rather be alone than surround myself with them. I can't rely on them at all, nor can I trust them, it's such a horrible feeling, knowing that your only friends are unreliable and untrue to themselves and others. Where did all the sincerity go? I can't even have a normal conversation without it feeling extremely dull or even performative. The only time that I've met people with true sincerity was in a mental hospital.