I was told I was the worst child out of the 7 kids. They picked out my flaws over my improvements of trying to be better. I was told over & over that I’m the problem, that I’m the reason that they’re getting a divorce. I gaslighted myself, manipulated myself, talked down to myself. I’ve been doing it ever since I was a kid. No matter how hard I tried to change for them it’s not enough. Today I was given the hardest choice, to leave the family & become homeless or my parents divorce & split the family. Why did it have to happen? I failed college, I work at a $22 hour job to help out & can’t find another job, still living with this now unconditional family. I can’t involved my friends either, they already have enough problems to deal with. Adding me and my dumbass that doesn’t know how to function this world on to their plate would just make life worse. My apologies doesn’t mean anything and I’ve TRIED SO HARD to help, but now I believe there’s only 1 solution to make it all better…