I cant sleep because i cant stop thinking about killing myself. I hate living and everything attached to it. I failed high school, not going to college, working a shit job. I don't even mind that really because no matter what ill have this empty void in my chest. Life is meaningless, why do we do the things we do? Because of our evolutionary defect of consciousness? For society? Everything thats supposed to matter to people is made up by others, theres no meaning in anything. No matter who you are, its a never ending loop of life, i hate it, i hate that im useless, i hate everything. I just want to die, i just want to die. Im tired of pushing through nothingness, i have no one to listen to me which is why im on this bullshit site anyway. I have no one truly there for me. Maybe if i had someone id want to live, but i dont, and i never will.