When I was 5, I had to live with my uncles and aunts in a small village in China because my parents were in Canada trying to get a citizenship. I lived with 4 uncles, and 4 aunts. My uncles exposed me to drugs, alcohol and cigarettes. When I was not sober, they would take advantage of it, and I'd never find out. I'd tell my aunts about my bloody underwear, and my sore legs, but the village was unproductive so they couldnt do anything. They got arrested when I was 8, and I learnt what they did at a young age. My parents genuinely tried hard to help me feel better but I shutted them out. I really regret it and I always try to win them back with high grades and perfect stuff, but they always tell me to try harder, and I think that they've completely given up on me. I never hurted myself, but I tried to kill myself 5 times, with the 5th being recently. Im hypersexual, schizo, and I feel disgusting. Im still a minor under 13, and I still smoke, drink and do drugs. I feel disgusted and guilt