My dad walked out of my life about a year ago. I’m well in my teens, but it still hurts like hell. And he tries to keep in touch now, after a LOT of initiatives that I have set into place. He’s always been a drunk and an asshole, but I am at heart just a girl who loves her dad. When I become soil, the only think I will leave behind is my love for him. I have my mom, but I just feel so empty without him. I shouldn’t have to be the adult, but he’s half of my life. And I miss him more than anything. He said he would call me today, but he’s not answering me. I know I should hate him, I should brush it off. I should be angry and be GLAD he’s not talking to me, but I’m just sad. He’s not paying his bills. every time I see him (ft only works, he’s not paying his cell) he’s drunk or high. I’m not allowed to be with him in person per my mom. I can’t take it any more. All I can think of are my baby photos on the fridge at his house. I was his baby, his little girl. Now he won’t even answer me.