It's been a few hours since I got back from my therapy session where Irecounted all the reasons why I think I should end my current relationship, but now instead of feeling decided about my choice, I feel sad and afraid to actually do it. most of the reasons for why i think we should break up are related to us wanting different things in life and him always making unfunny and gross jokes, for example, he takes my hand to kiss my fingers, only to actually try to lick them and leave them all covered in drool, or tries to put one of my fingers inside his nose because he thinks it's "funny" and unecessarily "ragebaiting" everyone he talks to the point it is just annoying. But now, after getting all this out, and playing Marvel Rivals with him and seeing how fun it was to spend this time with him, I'm just incredibly sad that maybe it's better for me not to have him in my life anymore. I haven't stopped loving him, I was just so stressed in the last few days that my emotions didn't sink in.