I am a fucking disgrace. I had a boy friend but then I met someone else. He was perfect and I had to ruin it. Rather than telling them about each other right away, I kept them separated so they didn't even know about one another. I was constantly lying to keep them both. One day, one of them found out about the other one. I was scared he would leave me so I told him, I would do something for him to make him stay. I tried explaining this to my other boyfriend but rather than letting me speak, he left right then and there. I felt like I had just lost both and it was all my fault. I managed to regain the trust with one of them but not a day goes by were I don't think about the other guy. Now I almost wish I had chosen different. Broken up with the first guy to be with the second guy. He was an angel and I had just chosen wrong. It's a decision that still haunts me to this day. I miss him so much. I want him to come back but I know, he will never want to see me ever again. Sorry my love <3