for years i have been trying to understand the rootcause of my problems- no friends, struggle with learning ,which i think is due to adhd. but why no friends? i wish my parents were loving parners, we never really talked on the dinner table, mother has always been busy with her studies, never really gave me time, i wish she had taught me how to interact .i had friends back then during school days, slowly i started losing em, changed multiple schools, couldnt continue friendships. Im in clg now, have no friends, she never really encouraged me to go outside , i asked her if i could go out to which she denied, always thought my parents were chill ,i was wrong. what else ?much more ..im just tired. thanks for reading