On the topic of my friend who I have a crush on, I have seen her around in a... particular community I won't say. I was younger, I was doing things I shouldn't have had. Years later, I am 17 and I got her added on my discord, we talked, hanged out, got close, I would consider her a friend. Anyways, I am 18 now, but my crush on her hasn't gone away, if anything it keeps getting stronger, I keep wanting to just talk to her and at least do stuff together, but I also know it's likely she doesn't like me, and that maybe she is not a good person to be with especially because I met her in a community no one should have ever been in. Her name is Blossom. I have a plush named after her, I deeply want to be with her, but I know I shouldn't, it wouldn't work out anyways. I am so damn lonely and have never felt the levels there are to these things. I wish younger me didn't hang out in harmful communities online, I wish I was more open about my mental health to the few people I know IRL. Sorry.