what am i if im not the perfect student? maybe im letting it affect me too much but i dont know if letting out my internalised anger is better than acting like it doesnt really bother me; which maybe it doesnt and im making a big deal out of it because i have a big ego. my teachers are probably really disappointed in me too and i feel so fucking guilty for letting them down like that. i want to prove im not a failure at this one subject but we are forced to switch subjects next term and i cant pick that one. next year i will probably pick that subject as an elective but how can i perform well in that elective knowing i fucked up last year?
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