I feel like I’m trapped in like a cycle… every time I mess up I always restart to the beginning, I don’t think I’m good enough and I don’t ever think I will be enough.. I sometimes harm myself for it because i learned when I do, it gets my mind off the subject. I’m scared of my parents because regardless of the situation, I always get yelled at, but it’s not their fault I always mess up, I have a memory of a snail and I can’t keep a convo going for more than 5 seconds, I’m socially awkward and barely speak unless spoken to or with someone I am comfortable with. I always have pent up emotional and grew accustomed to that life style but recently, I’ve started harming myself and having thoughts.. I think I’m a burden most of the time, I’m just here to see if anyone understand what I’m going through.. and how to fix it.. how to get a better mindset.. thanks if you read this far ^^