I recently lost someone close to me. She was basically my mom. I'm a young person, 20. I have never lost someone before this so I never understood how complex grief is. But my first birthday without her is coming up and besides that, I have just been missing her so much recently. Like there is a part of being sad about her passing. Like being said about her DEATH. But then there is the sadness of actually missing her. Never being able to call her again, make jokes with her, see her pretty face. I mean this woman lit up a room. Having an event without her was boring. you NEEDED her there because she is going to make the party. And cancer took her. It is so unfair that such a kind, fun, lighthearted, giving person was taken from this world so early. And now I have to spend the rest of life grieving her instead of knowing her. I think grief is so common that it's like "oop, yep, another person lost someone close to them, that sucks" but this is my life. I have to live like this forever.