i just had a massive arguement with my best friend, and now she says she doesnt want to be friends anymore. I feel so broken and ashamed of myself. there's nothing I can do now but give her space, but doing that feels like torture. I said hurtful abusive things to her, she must be hurt. I just want my friend back i want how we used to be back i miss it so much. I helped her move and was there for her the whole way and i thought i had helped, but resentment built up from how stressful it all was. i'm spiralling really awfully and I dont know what to do.