what happens when the people you are supposed to love hurt you the most. stop saying 'look at everything i've done for you.' do you want me to tell you what you've done for me (except then i would be victimized so i'll just say it here)?? i've learned how to cry silently when i'm alone and how to turn off my emotions when i'm not. i've learned how to read someone's mood in seconds, without them even saying anything. i've learned how to put the horrible hurtful things you said to me into a box in my mind and force myself to forget about them. i've learned how to put on a mask, a new personality, how to fake myself into someone you'll like better than the real me. i've learned how to lie to myself and to you. i've learned that i will never be good enough. so yes, let's go through everything you've done for me.