Lately I've been getting a bit sad. I keep finding myself thing about how I've been abused and used all my life and told I'm dramatic for feeling sad or having enough of it. Told my victimizing myself by the same people who know what they do and know what other people were doing to me. I try to remain positive and strong and happy and just live as best I can but it's hard. I recently left a toxic relationship where I was being graped drugged an hurt and sold and he wanted a stockholm bond ig he got it because even though he hurt me part of me still misses him an I know it's probably only because things didn't get better in my life I left one abuser to come to another one an not want to come back to the one I live with nie is part of why I stayed with him so long. I tell myself at least with him I could work and eventually save money to leave and have my dog to love on and protect from him idk lonely and tired and trying to stay strong when my soul is tired