I have always wondered why homosexuality in men carries such a powerful stigma whereas homosexuality in women is more widely accepted. Years ago when I was only about 15, a local public pool lifeguard began grooming me. Of course at that young age I wasn't aware what was happening and at that point in my life, while I'd had some homosexual experiences with local boys, they carried no weight because they were just experimental. But eventually this much older man worked up to a situation where I stayed overnight at his house, where he seduced me into having sex with him. To this day that occasion remains a dark secret kept locked away inside of me. I didn't "become" gay, but after years I admitted to myself that I was bisexual. I have no attraction to men, but the sexual aspect is often intriguing, especially in clandestine situations like public restrooms or cruising parks. But I still carry a great deal of guilt and shame.