im scared of falling asleep because it simulates death too well. I hate waking up and not being able to remember what I was doing for the past 8 hours because I was unconcsious. I'd rate unconsciousness 10/10 on the scary-meter. I'm scared of dying, but at the same time I want to die so bad. My life is pretty shitty. But then I feel as if I can't feel bad about that because there are genuinely people going through worse things around the world. I'm not being bombed or shot. I can go to school. I eat multiple meals a day. I'm not being persecuted by the state for my identity (yet... lol). But still. I feel like shit everyday and want to die. But eternal nothingness scares the shit out of my butt. FML. Fuck itttt.
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