I really wish someone would listen to me and actually be able to respond. I have plenty of people in my life but there has been only one person that has every really stayed and listend but i messed it up. I was with someone, long distance, for several years. I had doubts, but pure love. We were gonna move in together, we got engaged and then we fought. Or maybe that's not the right term but after constantly asking for more effort more quality. I got tired. I got distant and he did too. The real kicker is i stoped loving him the same way. I know that because it started to feel like a task and i also started liking someone else. I keep telling myself that i'm human and that those thigns happen and it's not my fault. But i guess, now that it's been half a year, that the date we had picked is here, that i still feel alone despite still seeing someone... I wonder why it had to be like this. I lost my biggest support, my best friend, my lover and it feels like it was all my fault. I'm sorry