I hate this I can't take it anymore my mom won't let me see my girlfriend because it's 'disgusting' I know I'm disgusting ive known for so long I hate that I like girls but she's the only one who made me feel loved and I swear she's the only one who gave me a reason to live but sometimes it's so hard talking to her because my gf is so mean to me sometimes when I tell her she hurt my feelings I wish that she understands what I mean and how much I love her but I have to stfu bc just bc I'm struggling doesn't mean she isnt she told me she's struggling and she has bpd my struggle is less than hers my struggle doesn't even count cuz I deserve mine I hurt so many ppl so I deserve to feel pain I'm a monster I'm disgusting so so disgusting maybe if I act like this pure hearted person they won't know how much of a disgusting Pearson I am I'm overly sensitive selfish overthinking attention seeker I bet all of ts I do is for attention I hate that I feel this way I just want someone to understand