I feel trapped. I want to be free but I know its unhealthy. But not sure if im stuck in my relationship because its safe or because I genuinely love my partner. But im crazy so he definitely gives me the no one will ever love you like I do speech. Ive cheated on him just so he wouldn't want to be with me. Im just lost at this point also bad bipolar with bpd so its just hard to stay in a healthy relationship. But with our past its hard to let go of the bad hes done and my retaliation towards it.
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