sometimes i wonder how i've made it this far. i know there are better things waiting, like everyone says, but are there really? is dealing with this right now worth the better things in the future? is there even better things in the future or are we all just taking a gamble and hoping its worth the cost? because that's really what it feels like. is all of this weight, anger, frustration, sadness, low self-esteem and crying worth the rainbow at the end, especially when we don't even know if we'll see the rainbow? because it certainly looks bleak right now. but, fellow humans, we must persevere. i want to share a piece. "Life is a gamble, that much is true, but whether it's worth living, that's all up to you" -a very intellectual person now life is a gamble. is all the bad worth the good? but how you define the small moments that make life truly worth living is what makes the bad worth it. sometimes you need to make your own rainbow after you've seen the clouds.