Maybe I'm not trying and I'm just lying to myself. But I really am trying, even if no one else sees it. I've cried, hurt, and pushed through so much, and to be told I don't try and I'm not good enough. It really hurts. I don't know if I can continue a sport where I get no feedback or encouragement. The rare times I do are only if I do well. To be told "You don't try" Instead of "You need to work on this" isn't a good coaching technique. And I don't know what the problem is because I really do try but I think I just look like I don't because there are so many better people than me for my age. But at the same time I am trying not only in sets but by even asking to move up groups. But now I'm stuck with varsity where I have no motivation, no friends, and no will to swim. I don't think I can do this to be honest. I'm not going to swim when school starts and I have to see if I can even make it through summer because I can't deal with all this being told I'm not good enough, it hurts. I try