I might have a job and maybe one thread of past connections, but thanks to my gulity ass, i've got nothing in life worth struggling for or even anything left. I shoulda died with a disease instead of the person who did, i'm already a horrid person, no one should will or ever care especially since im sick in the head. I still cant get therapy, or cant face it. But i know access is impossible. Who cares? This wont fucking matter.