I am a very bubbly person. I think sometimes that trait makes me appear shallow and uncaring, but the truth is I care. I care so much. I think it's easier for people sometimes to immediately label me as a ditzy, stupid, all over the place girl, than to really get to know me. To understand that I am a complex person, that I am intelligent, that I do have something to bring to the table. I know this about myself. I know I am creative, emotionally attuned, and a good student. But sometimes the stereotype so often perpetuated by others about me, makes me want to lose this complexity. To become one thing or the other. I hate this. I think it is this complexity which makes me myself. This complexity that allows me to be both playful and scholarly. But I also hate feeling stupid. Less than. Undervalued. How do I go about this? Do I sacrifice parts of myself to mitigate this feeling? Or do I do the opposite? Or nothing at all. I have so much work to do , but this question is weighing on me.