sometimes it feels like I don't have any friends. like I know that's not true, I can go through my contacts at any time and see tons of names but its like. of any of them, I don't have anyone who's ever free at the same time as me to just talk and shoot the shit. I keep trying to chat with this friend group I was in a couple years ago, but nobody ever replies to me and when they do it feels fake. its not like they were all a group and then I joined, we all kind of migrated together and it was awesome but then we left camp and it was like nobody cared about each other anymore. or maybe they just stopped caring about me. it wouldn't be the first time I found out that there was a group chat I wasn't in. it just sucks because I know I can make friends with one-on-one type situations but I guess in any group I just have a strange unsettling aura that ends up with me being left out. I just want to find a group I really connect with that I don't end up shoved out of.