In December so now 7 months ago, i broke up with my now ex bf, of basically 3 years. I didn't want to break up with him…but i had to. we got in a really toxic cycle and i couldn't fix it ( i tried for MONTHS before i ended it ) But any way not time has pasted and were friends an every thing but we both know we still love each other and he still flirts and tells me he loves me. I still look at him with love because thats the only way i've ever looked at him, its just how i see him. i look at him adn my heart still just over flows with love. but now instead of a smile that would join that feeling, its tears. i want to cry and just bawl my eyes out every time, not because he did any thing wrong but because i still love him and i don't think i can ever un love him and he knows that. However we also both know that were not right for each other rn. I had to end it so we wouldn't end up hating each other, but i just ended up hating my self more then i ever have in my entire life.