I feel like I'm just slowly dying. last summer was horrible. My mom got so stressed and screamed at us pratically every day. And this summer... well Mom's back to screaming. All my friends are on vacation and since we are a big family we don't travel. I'm not old enough to go out on my own. I feel trapped. When my mom gets mad there's literally no way to win. Like if you say Sorry, she'll be like SAY IT WHEN YOU ACTUALLY DO IT. IF you try to say something else she'll be like NO TALKING BACK. IF you try to just stay quiet and nod she'll be like WHY ARE YOU IGNORING ME?? There's no win. Just survival. I feel like I'll never be enough. Sure, you babysat your baby sister for three hours? Well that's cool but you forgot to charge the generator so now you are irresponsible.