Dont "fake it until you make it". If you do, it'll only end up worse. Take care of you and your body well, including your mind and emotions. To anyone reading this, dont push through, walk. If it takes you years to get back up there, then its okay. You'll make it up there in the end, right? There is always time to take breaks, calm down, or seek help. Remember, reaching up there wont be easy. It never is. Dont assume you can do it yourself either, have someone be there for you, support you on your way. Make them feel appreciated back or even give them a small fist bump or handshake. Just make it known to yourself that no matter what, in this world, there are people making a path for you or others. And no, "up there" isnt Heaven, but it can be if you wanna see it that way. "Up there" is just your goal for the future. Your desires, needs, and achievements are ultimately apart of the path. Dont think too hard abaout anything either. If something bad happens, fix it even if it adds time.