im at this point in my life where I can't physically stand people. yes, it makes me 10x better mentally and emotionally when I'm with people, but I'm extremely paranoid. im paranoid that they don't like me, im comparing my relations to other people, and I just can't seem to figure out why I can't have that connection with others. I think part of it is because I flake on others too much, but yk depression will make you do that. I guess it's cause I don't really talk about my problems much, for fear of vulnerability or whatnot. I would like to just sleep forever but experience that peace of sleeping? not just unconsciousness. to whoever is reading this tho, I hope you're doing a bit better than how I am, and that you're worth it. do as I say not as I do type thing