I am so touch starved and lonely. I dont remember the last time I had a friend that wasnt online (and even then I'm not that close to my online friends). I can never think of what to say in a conversation. Any time I try making friends with someone I feel like an alien trying to blend in. I partially blame my mom for super sheltered and not letting me hang out with any of my peers esp in my teenage years. m Ik it isnt entirely her fault though, it's a mix of things. I am in my 20s and I've never had a real relationship- only discord relationships that lasted a few months when I was a teen. I've never so much as held hands with someone. I dont know if I want to or not the idea kinda scares me, but I like fantasizing about it and I wish I at least got the chance to. I am so lonely I fall for anyone who pays a lot of attention rather if its negative or positive. More than romance I want friends even just one. I do everything alone or with my parents.