i fucked up really badly, i always do but this time feels different, my friend, my reason to keep trying to live, probably hates me, and theyre probably right. i talk to them like theyre my psychologist, they told me to stop treating them like this but i cant, i feel so bad all the time and they are the only person in this world that i can barely trust on. they told me to leave them alone and i just kept saying sorry and begging them to come back. (note: my friend tried to support me like a million times but im a messed up little shit that does not seek for help, eventually they got tired, it's probably not their fault this is happening.) uhh idk what else to say, im sorry for the long ass text, i just talk a lot everytime i can express my emotions, im trying this website to try and not bother them anymore with my emotions.