my friend and i call each other every night and fall asleep on call. its been this way for almost a month. ive gotten so used to it and so dependent on it i dont know if i can fall asleep without him there. he's on vacation right now and has to share a room with his siblings so we cant really talk the way we normally would. some sick and selfish part of me wishes that he wasn't there so that we could talk freely. ive told him that too, and the worst part is that he isn't upset with me for thinking that way. instead he tells me to be as selfish as i want. i have really bad anxiety and am discovering my severe abandonment issues, and its just making this harder.
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