Warnig for heavy topics, feel like I've been too leaned on my childhood best friend, they're all what I think about, lately they have gotten too violent, dismissive, and sometimes avoidant towards me, which is nothing in my point of view, they're probably going through a hard time, but a thing that passed me by last year what them sexualy assaulting me infront of their older sister by pulling my clothes off to show her my underwear, then proceeded to somehow do that in school infront of our classmates who got weirded our aswell, attachment issues are so weird, I told myself that iwas just doing too much and there are other things she did that I should've thought about, but I can't bring myself to hate or cut relations with her, she's all what ihave and the only in real life friend that I met, its selfish, but idont know how to heal or get out of this at all, this hunts me nearly everyday, and I became a total mess because of it