I hate my family. I don't even care anymore. They raise me in a pessimistic way and neglect me emotionally for about 7 years (I'm a minor still). I'm never allowed to have what I want and then get told 'You're such an easy kid, you never want anything!' yeah because every time I ask it's always "later" or "we don't have enough money" but they always have a hundred or so dollars laying around for another gaming device for my sibling even if all I want is to go the park. I bottle up all my frustrations and never let them out, not even when my friends ask "What's wrong?" because at home, It's always ignored. Every time I cry, I get called sensitive or dramatic, I get mad = I get called a brat, and god forbid I write a suicide note because my siblings will just confront me and laugh about it later on. My sister talks shit about me, My brother tries to ignore me. I'm so sorry for pushing out my cousins because even though I disliked them and they were shitty but at least they understood me.