I have graduation tomorrow. Ive been kinda nervous all day. And as i was getting ready for bed, i realixed im not nervous for the cereminy.... im scared to leave. See, i do online school. Been there about 4 years. Ome of my oldest friends is this dude Ill call J. J and i have been friends almost that entire time, although with different amounts of closeness, depending on situations, especially relationships cause wanting to respect other peoples relarionships and junk yk? But he means a LOT to me. He knows about me, hears my rants. Hes a brother to me in a lot of ways. The problem is we live like 9 hours away and we dont have any way to meet up, so this weekend was our first time seeing eachother in person. And tomorrow.... we leave. And im not ready to say goodbye. I love him so much. Platonically but STILL. I :(((( i really like him and i love seeing him and punching him in the shoulder and im afraid i wont be content with not seeing him in person anymoew.