I hate my body. I especially hate how flat my chest is. I hate not having any cleavage no matter what I try. Everyday I compare myself to other woman: family, friends, strangers, celebrities, even cartoon women. I hate it when my friend says she wishes she was flatter. I hate when my family tells me I shouldn't be insecure, as if they don't all have C-cups or larger. They don't know how it feels. Even if I gain weight the fat skips straight to my stomach and my chest stays the same size. I want implants but I can't afford them, and I don't think I ever will be able to. My bodyshape in general makes me feel like I'll never be capable of being feminine. I want to dress in cute dresses and tight/low cut shirts, but I look so hideous. I only feel comfortable in baggy clothes double my size. I'm afraid no one will ever find me attractive.