i keep thinking about how she fell. slumped over like a ragdoll. Only by god's will did she survive that. I don't know what I'd do if she didn't. I was just on autopilot mode, i went to her side and saw her convulsing and lifted her head (only later did I remember you should never do that) I froze. I couldn't tell if it was a heat stroke a heart attack a seizure. Did I need to put her on her side? Did she need CPR? Is she choking she's making gagging sounds. I don't know how to do any of that CPR Heimlich's maneuver dear god. The berries in my hand were forgotten instantly, now busying themselves with shakily dialing the emergency number. I can't sleep. The image of her falling on the pavement. Eyes rolling back. Then in 30 seconds she was up like nothing happened. I'm glad. I'm glad she got up. I am so immensely relieved she knew her name and surroundings. I am so happy she's alive. I need to prepare myself so I know what to do next time. I won't stand there frozen next time.