It’s been two years we only talked but I still miss him. He liked me more than any boy ever has and I ruined it bc I couldn’t believe him. We had two different chances to get together and they both were stopped bc of miscommunication. The issue literally bled into my sophomore year and now I’m a junior. All my friends tell me he’s just insecure and I hear that he talks about me all the time. I don’t know what to do it’s too embarrassing to text him out of the blue and tell him how I feel. He literally went on a rant to my friends and like drilled them for answers on me “did she like me” “why didn’t she tell me she liked me back” and like other things that happened. He literally got all excited and went “she liked me back!” To his friend right before saying that if I’m ever interested again he’s not open. I understand that it hurt his ego it just kills me that he’ll never know how I fully felt and I never got to fully appreciate him. I hate being avoidant I can’t let myself be happy.