i just feel so useless all the time, i've tried so hard to do well in my creative writing and my friend stil won better than me. my sister is pissing me off she thinks she can get anything she wants and she blames me for everything around this house dude, i just really want to get better but it seems like there's so much i have to do before i can heal... sigh this just feels petty but i just really want to be praised for my achievements and stop sharing a room with a 10 year old who can't understand basic fucking decency and the word 'no'. (I'm transmasc btw and he/him so it's extremely uncomfortable to share a room with a girl which is younger than me, even if we are related by blood.)