Why can't I be enough for him? Why can't he treat me like how he treats others? I just want his time and attention. Nothing monetary, no grand gestures, just connection. He makes everything he does seem like an obligation instead of genuinely wanting to connect with the person he's been with for 6 years. Found out he's been jacking off secretly in the bathroom to other women on twitter and using an AI prompt roleplay app to get off. Anytime I ask why doesn't he just come to me if he wants to have fun, he brushes it off with "I didn't wanna bother you". At the same time it feels like the only time we physically connect is to JUST have sex. All I want sometimes is a hand to hold, forehead kisses, arms that hold me when I fall apart. He doesn't even say I love you normally. It's always in a weird voice that sounds like he's being playful instead of saying it from his heart. Maybe I'm just delusional and grasping to what once was in the hopes that it'll come back. I really am crazy...