I don't know anymore, I feel like just a fucking dipshit in everyone elses eyes, I noticed myself always saying sorry to people when they should be saying sorry, I try to please them so I just prioritize them over myself, I found out my trauma responses are either fawning, or people pleasing, I'm trying to get antidepressants that aren't to expensive, I also just suffer so much now, I have been trying to get better. My sleep schedule is just fucked now, 4:00 AM bedtime, 1:00 PM Wakeup time, I'm trying to fix it, but I just CAN'T.
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