I wish I were born a male. but I don't wanna be trans. I was born a woman, I will stay a women. but I do really wish I were a boy. Because I'm a woman, I'm as3xual, if I were a man, that wouldn't be the case. I know I'm attracted to males and i don't think that would change if I were to be a male. It feels pointless to be trans because I do like being feminine. I just... don't like my female anatomy? I'd want to be bottom as either gender, so I don't know why I feel like I'd need to be a male to enjoy s3x. I don't know what's wrong with me. It shouldn't matter what gender I am with my preferences, yet I know i wouldn't enjoy s3x if I didn't have male anatomy. One of my friends told me that I'm 'f3tishizing being gay'??? and now I'm really questioning things. Lately I've just felt numb, and idk what to do. I can't even talk to my family about it. I come from a very homophobic/transphobic family who would hate me if i told them how I feel.