I miss my best friend even though he is my ex. Him and I were in an online relationship but after our breakup we decided to keep in touch, I got a boyfriend and nothing changed… we would FaceTime, call, and weirdly enough I started seeing him as brother 2 years after the breakup. (We never met each other irl or kissed or anything weird). I told my boyfriend about him and everything was fine on my end but then my best friend started seeing a girl and decided to cut me off entirely after almost 3 years of pure friendship. I feel guilty for missing him, even though what I feel is far from romantic I just miss him, however I respect and understand his decision. Nevertheless, it still hurts.