i'm so tired of trying. i tried therapy. that couldn't stop me from relapsing. I don't want to be in school, its working towards a future I don't want. And I can't even kill myself because i'm too much of a coward. I just want to die. will someone please just kill me so I can stop trying? I don't want to try anymore. I don't want to keep working for a life that will never be good enough to outweigh the emptiness and exhaustion I feel. I'm so tired. I just want to die. please just let me die